It's funny how there is so much that I want to blog about, but I don't end up doing it because I don't want people to read what I write and end up thinking that I am a douchebag. Because that, to me, is what people are going to think when they read about me going "I look good today", or "I wore a short skirt!"

One of my friends recently found this blog, and I know that two more people are following it, but... I'm not really sure how I feel about this. When I started the blog, I wanted people to read it. But it's not a fashion blog. It's not even really a style blog, just a collection of rants and ravings about how I can make myself feel better about the shitty way that I look most of the time.

And that's pretty much what I think - I look shitty most of the time. I look pulled together, but always... boring. I would love to be one of those people who can put on makeup every day, make fabulous outfits, have the courage to wear things that push the envelope of what is acceptable, but I can't.

I want to clean out my wardrobe, fix the things that I like, get rid of things that I don't like or don't fit. I'm not sure if I could ever do this, but I'd like to. I'm hoping that when I do I can try to sell some of my things at the local consignment store, so I can get some credit for them and then get more clothes that fit my style.

Of course, that means that I will have to figure out what my style is.

Oh Jesus, this is getting way to complicated.

On a slightly better note, I have been trying to eat a lot better this week. More fibery things (greek yoghurt is love!), more fruits (if bananas count), less... junk. For a couple of days I was eating nothing but crackers, but that was not a good thing at all. So I stopped that. No yummy crackers for the past couple of days.

Meh. So that's pretty much it, at the moment. But I have to give myself credit, I have cut down on a lot of crap, especially considering how stressed I am. Baby steps.

(A lot of this was just pure ranting, especially about how I look. But considering that this blog is called "Learning To Accept Myself", I need to... accept myself. The good and the bad. True, no?)